2.21.2013 GOD FOCUS VS SELF FOCUS

the following is taken from world magazine 2.23.2013, p79...

..the biggest battle is in the thought life.
in a sense there is no other life than the thought life.
the renewal of the mind effects transformation. romans 12.2
-not abstractly, but in the conscious dimension.
it involves our cooperation and is not a passive work of God
apart from that cooperation.
'kin all your ways acknowledge Him
and He shall direct your paths. proverbs 3.6

i'm no king david, but king david messed up regarding his children,
where i also failed.
he suffered greatly in his private moments.
i can tell.
and we have many words from david left to posterity,
but I LOOK IN VAIN FOR SIGNS OF MORBID
PICKING AT SCABS.
by contrast, at christmastime
i gave my daughter a book of poetry..
and most of them were an obsessive raking over the coals
of an old divorce.

david's deathbed words II samuel 23; I chronicles 28
bare NO HINT OF SELF FLAGELLATION
BUT ARE FULL OF WORSHIP.
his gaze lifted upward,
he speaks of 'the rock ofIsrael',
and the beauty of (His) justice
'like rain that makes grass to sprout from the earth'
-revelatory of a man who has learned
how to talk his soul back to joy by meditating on
things eternal rather than temporal.  

i was struck by this... the example of david.
is he the man in the bible who takes the prize
for having the most sins revealed to the world by God?
he would be my guess.
i used to think that this was because
God said of him, and no one else,
that he was a man after God's heart..
and God wanted to encourage each person who read
that no matter how many times they sin,
if they follow david as he followed God,
they too could be very intimate with
and very pleasing to God.

but having read this today
i am led to think of another possible reason...
that when he confessed each sin to God
(the most famous confession,
being psalm 51,
where he confesses committing adultery with bathsheba
and then making sure that her husband uriah
was killed in battle against the ammonities)
he not only BELIEVED the truth we read in I john 1.9,
'that if we confess our sin,
He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness',
BUT HE BELIEVED IT
TO THE DEGREE THAT
in his mind and heart HIS SIN
WAS
INDEED
G-O-N-E
not to be thought of
(are we to think of what God does not?)
never to be spoken of again,
never to be bemoaned,
totally gone.
why? i am thinking that maybe he treated his sin this way
because he knew that God treated it this way.
..'buried under the deepest sea...
as far as the east from the west...
never to be remembered against him any more!
...and why should he besmear or doubt
what God said He did?

this is specially precious to me.
for it has increasingly come to me,
sometime from my friend ray,
that i am constantly bemoaning my sin and
bringing to remembrance my sin
and, now with sorrow i am now realizing
that i have, in a sense, been publicly
broadcasting to everyone who hears,
that i do not believe what God says.
for if i did i would not disgrace Him
by talking, or even thinking about
that which is GONE as far as He is concerned.
done by His 'hand', as it were.

so with God's help
from this day
i hope never again
to think
talk
or write
of even one of my sins,
once confessed and forsaken
a simple way of saying,
THANK YOU
I BELIEVE YO